Tuesday, March 22, 2011

"A LETTER FROM HEAVEN"

"A Letter From Heaven"
 
To my dearest family, some things I'd like to say
But first of all, to let you know, that I arrived okay.
I'm writing this from heaven, here I dwell with God above
Here, there's no more tears of sadness; Here is just eternal love.
Please do not be unhappy just because I'm out of sight;
Remember that I am with you every morning, noon, and night.
That day I had to leave you when my life on earth was through
God picked me up and hugged me and He said, "I welcome you."
"It's good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone,
As for your dearest family, they'll be here later on.
I need you here badly, you are part of my plan,
There's so much that we have to do to help out mortal man."
God gave me a list of things that he wished for me to do
And foremost on my list is to watch and care for you.
And when you lie in bed at night; the day's chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you, in the middle of the night.
When you think of my life on earth, and all of those missed years,
Because you are only human, they are bound to bring you tears.
But do not be afraid to cry, it does relieve the pain,
Remember there would be no flowers, unless there was some rain.
I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned,
But if I were to tell you that, you wouldn't understand.
But one thing is for certain though, my life on earth is o'er,
I'm closer to you now than ever was before.
There are many rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb,
But together we can do it by taking one day at a time.
There is a very wise philosophy and I'd like to share it with you,
That as you give unto the world, the world will give unto you.
If you can help somebody who is in sorrow and pain,
Then you can say to God at night, "My day was not in vain.
And now I am contented, that my life is worthwhile,
Knowing as I passed along the way I made somebody smile."
So if you meet somebody who is sad and feeling low,
Just lend them your hand to pick them up, as on your way you go.
When you're walking down the street and you've got me on your mind,
I'm walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.
And when it's time for you to go, for that body to be free,,
Remember you're not going, You're coming here to me.
 
Author Unknown

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

WHY?

I LIVE TO LOVE AND LOVE TO LIVE BUT SOMETHING IS MISSING IN MY LIFE.....I HAVE 2 BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN BUT PART OF MY HEART IS WITH GOD.  I CAN'T HELP BUT TO ASK THE QUESTION WHY?  WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE NOT TO BE ABLE TO KISS MY JUSTICE ROSE ON THE CHEEK EVERY DAY LIKE I DO MY OTHER CHILDREN.  I PRAY TO MY BABY GIRL EVERYNIGHT BUT WHY CAN'T I HOLD HER AND TALK TO HER LIKE I HOPED FOR?  I GO AND VISIT HER GRAVE EVERY SUNDAY BUT I WHY CAN'T I HOLD HER EVERYDAY? 

I KNOW IT IS WRONG TO ASK WHY BUT I CAN NOT HELP BUT TO QUESTION WHY?  MY WORST ENEMY DOES NOT DESERVE THIS PAIN.  THE PAIN OF NEVER GETTING TO KNOW MY BABY GIRL.

ALL I CAN DO IS WAIT FOR THE DAY WHERE I WILL BE ABLE TO HOLD HER AGAIN AND SHARE THE LOVE FOR HER WITH OTHERS AND TRY TO HELP OTHERS IN THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW.

"A Thousand Words Can't Bring You Back,
I Know Because I Tried
And Neither Can a Million Tears
I Know Because I Cried."
~Author Unknown


Tuesday, January 25, 2011

REMEMBERING IS THE KEY TO MY HEART


A BEAUTIFUL POEM FROM A GREAT FRIEND!

"These are my footprints,
so perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints
never touched the ground at all.
Not one tiny footprint,
for now I have wings.
These tiny footprints were meant
for other things.
You will hear my tiny footprints,
in the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
of joy and not from pain.
You will see my tiny footprints,
in each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
if you just give me the chance.
You will see my tiny footprints,
in the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
and call each one that grieves.
Most of all, these tiny footprints,
are found on Mommy and Daddy's hearts.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll never truly part."
~Unknown

JUSTICE ROSE YOUR FOOTPRINTS HAVE PLACED A PERMANENT IMPRESSION INTO MY HEART AND YOU WILL FOREVER BE REMEMBERED AND LOVED.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

IS THERE A REASON?

They Say There is a Reason

They say there is a reason,

They say that time will heal,
...
But neither time nor reason,

Will change the way I feel,

For no-one knows the heartache,

That lies behind our smiles,

No-one knows how many times,

We have broken down and cried,

We want to tell you something,

So there won't be any doubt,

You're so wonderful to think of,

But so hard to be without.

Author Unknown
THIS POEM IS MY LIFE.  THIS IS WHAT I EXPERIENCE EVERYDAY!  A LIFE OF MISSING MY PRECIOUS ANGEL AND WANDERING WHY ME.  WHY DO I HAVE TWO HEALTHY KIDS AND MY 3RD CHILD WAS TAKEN FROM ME SO FAST AND SO SUDDEN.
ON SATURDAY JULY 17TH MY FAMILY THROUGH ME A BABY SHOWER FOR OUR LITTLE GIRL THAT WAS DUE SEPTEMBER 1,2010.  I WAS SICK THE WEEK BEFORE WITH A HORRIBLE COLD AND I WAS SLOWLY GETTING OVER IT THAT DAY.  I FELT SOME PRESSURE IN MY BELLY BUT NOTHING THAT DIDN'T SEEM NORMAL FROM MY OTHER CHILDREN.  I PRESSED FORWARD AND LAUGHED AND ENJOYED MY TIME WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS.  SUNDAY JULY 18TH I MADE IT MY "OFFICIAL LAZY DAY"  BEING 100 DEGREES OUTSIDE AND STILL NOT FEELING 100% I REMAINED INSIDE AND WATCHED MOVIES WITH MY HUSBAND AND CHILDREN ALL DAY.  JUSTICE DID NOT KICK THAT MUCH THAT DAY BUT WE HAD JUST WENT TO THE DOCTORS OFFICE THE 2 DAYS BEFORE ON THAT FRIDAY AND HER HEART BEAT WAS STRONG SO THE DOCTOR SENT ME HOME AND TOLD ME TO COME IN THAT MONDAY FOR MY FINAL ULTRASOUND.  SUNDAY HAD PASSED AND IT WAS BACK TO WORK ON MONDAY.  EVEN THOUGH WORK IS NOT MY FAVORITE PLACE TO BE I WAS SO EXCITED ON THIS MONDAY.  WITH THE FINAL ULTRASOUND ON THE SCHEDULE MY HUSBAND GATHERED UP THE CHILDREN AND MET ME AT THE DOCTORS OFFICE.  WE WENT IN TO THE ULTRASOUND ROOM AND THE NURSE STARTED SCANNING MY BELLY.  SHE SCANNED OVER TWICE AND SAID SHE WOULD BE RIGHT BACK.  I LOOKED AT MY HUSBAND IN SHOCK.  I THINK I KNEW BUT I DIDN'T THINK IT WOULD HAPPEN TO ME.
NEXT THING I KNOW MY DOCTOR WAS IN THE ROOM......HE BENT DOWN AND WHISPERED TO ME WHAT I THOUGHT I KNEW BUT DID NOT WANT TO BELIEVE.  MY PRECIOUS BABY GIRL HAD PASSED.  MY HUSBAND RUSHED THE KIDS TO DAYCARE AND CAME BACK TO BE AT MY SIDE.  AT THIS POINT I COULDN'T FOCUS ON WHAT TO THINK SO WE COULDN'T LET THE KIDS KNOW QUITE YET.  AFTER WE WENT THROUGH ALL THE UPS AND DOWNS WITH THE DOCTOR WE WENT HOME TO MOURN AND WAIT FOR THE NEXT MORNING TO DELIVER OUR ANGEL.  IS THERE A REASON? WHY ME? WHAT DID I DO TO HURT SO MUCH AND HAVE MY CHILD TAKEN FROM ME?  ON JULY 20,2010 OUR PRECIOUS ANGEL JUSTICE ROSE WAS DELIVERED.  A DAY TO REMEMBER AND NEVER FORGET!  MY LOVE MY LIFE MY PRECIOUS BABY GIRL!